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Birth and Beyond…

11 Apr

Yes! I have returned after a long hiatus, and now have a beautiful baby girl in tow.

One month and one day ago, my little Sofia Aya arrived into the world.
She is adorable, and I’m pretty sure she knows it.

The past few weeks have been a huge transition for me; I have a baby to take care of now. She is this tiny little bundle of joy and every other emotion you can think of.

I’ve realized that you really can’t know how much you’ll enjoy motherhood until it happens to you. I love every minute of it; even through groggy 2 am diaper changes, feedings, and seemingly endless crying. Sofia is perfect.

I would be lying though if I said I wasn’t tired, but I feel like my body is quickly adjusting to running on 3 to 4 hour blocks of sleep. Not to mention, all that advice I shrugged off before is really coming in handy. I nap when I can, and I relish in the quiet times.

Parenting is 24/7, it’s definitely not easy, and it’s not always fun, but I’m not afraid to tackle any obstacles that come with raising a baby. She is worth every (literal) blood, sweat, and tear.

In the beginning it was hard to do anything else but focus on the baby, but now I am slowly finding time for myself as well.

With that being said, I really want to get back to my creative ventures. Now that I’m taking some time off from school I can get back to my projects that have been long put off. I want to write more, get back to music, and do more of that “artsy” stuff. I’m really looking forward to getting a lot of things accomplished this spring and summer. I’m feeling motivated, now more than ever to be successful. Not only for myself but so Sofia can have a good life as well.

Now with baby Sofia at my side I can be the on-the-go glamour momma I always saw myself becoming.

…and yes I can still be stylish, even changing a dirty diaper.

Vlog – I’m Back! …Again!

30 Dec

Yes, it’s been quite a while again, but there’s big news and big changes. I’ve got a baby coming along now, and a fresh new start next year. So much excitement, and so much to look forward to.

Finally…the Announcement

20 Nov

Another month has seemed to fly by… It’s funny how quickly time passes when you’re not paying attention.
Now a little time for reflection… and finally, the announcement I’ve been hinting at for what seems like months now.

As you may be able to see from the photo with this post, I have a little bun in the oven.

The Bun in the Oven

ETA – March 2011.

Yes, it may seem a little late for me to be making this sort of announcement, but hey, I’ve had a lot on my plate.

On top of school, and work, I’ve also been planning for this new member of the family.

In addition, I’ve been trying to formulate the right words to describe everything that is changing and developing in my life as of now.

It’s a little scary, to be honest. My entire life has taken a new direction, and a lot more changes are coming my way.
You can only really be so prepared for having a child, yet there’s still so much more you can never plan for.
Despite it all, it’s definitely a load off my shoulders to know I have a supportive family and boyfriend to help me.

I consider myself very lucky.
Not everybody has the love and support that I have.

Finding out was definitely a shocker; I mean, a baby wasn’t on my, or my boyfriend’s agenda for at the very least a few more years. Yet, here we were, being handed what could be arguably the greatest gift mother nature could give, even though it may not have felt like that at the beginning. As frightening as it all was, we settled that we were prepared to take on the challenge; we weren’t going to take the easy way out. We’d have the baby, and we’d raise it together.

I wasn’t sure what kind of reaction to expect when telling my friends and family, but to my relief. Everybody I spoke with was surprised, but supportive, even excited. I wasn’t being judged, they were happy for me, and that felt really good.

It’s also nice to be told they think I’d make a good mother, and I hope I will be.

So this announcement may lead to a lot of questions… and rightly so.

Will I continue my makeup and styling work?What are my future plans?
What’s going to change?
What’s going to stay the same?
What in the world is going on in my head?

I ask myself those questions almost every day.

For one, I definitely plan to continue my makeup and styling work. It’s my passion, and I want to do it for the rest of my life. Now, I’ll just have a little more to juggle, but I think I’ll be prepared for it with proper planning and coordinating with my boyfriend.
There are a lot of things I still am trying to figure out as far as my future.

There’s the question of Cosmetology school; will I take time off and finish later, or just power through? I think I’ll have to play it by ear. School is definitely still a top priority for me.
Luckily for my work situation, freelance is a perfect occupation because I can make my own schedule. It’ll definitely come in handy with a baby in tow, and like I said before, it also helps to have friends, boyfriend and family willing to lend a hand.

There are so many things going through my mind every day. I mean, frick! I’ve got a baby coming in 4 months!
It’s exciting, it’s frightening, it’s life-affirming, it’s so many things.

I can’t even imagine what it’ll really be like, it’s all still so surreal at some points.

I definitely hope to keep writing and talking about developments and baby-ness as the months go on.

Lot’s of changes are on the way…

Hope you all join me for the ride.